28 June 2011

Passion for Fashion

When I was young, like about three or four, I really idolized my mom and my older female cousins as they dress up and put on their make-ups. Everytime I see a lipstick or an eye shadow, it was like I wanted to put it on my little face to imitate the ladies of our family. I really loved to wear boots during the 90's even if I was still below five (5) years old and because that was the trend during that time. As I grow up and see or meet different people, I learned that each of us is unique and we possess our own style. Some people would judge you on how you look and even criticize everything about you, but that's just not right.

When I was in high school, I loved rock music and even until now. I used to dress up like a rocker and my schoolmates think it was cool so I preserved that image until I reached third year.

Actually my passion to be in that specific (rocker) image didn't go away; but I was deprived to continue being like that. That time I was having a terrible confusion on what image I was trying to make out of myself so I stopped having the rocker image and turned to be a more refined woman when I turned college.


 But I was telling myself, "I like it this way to be a more mature person when dressing up but I am not an adult yet and I still haven't overcome my passion for being a rocker." So I changed the way I look and somehow became a rocker again -- and guess what?! History repeats itself and I got deprived of it the second time! My boyfriend didn't want me to look like a thrasher because (I guess) he finds it DIRTY. So, to settle our conflict, I stopped being like it again and started dressing like a woman -- AGAIN.
("AGAIN" is being  loved in this blog. :D)
Until I graduate college, my love and passion for rock music didn't leave me; but I was deprived since highschool to express it. So when I got the chance to dress like a rocker again (during our graduation pictorial), I didn't let myself miss that opportunity! I searched the web for some black-inspired dresses and imitated it. I got the chance to dress up like a rocker again but with a kick of a somehow-refined-woman image.


For now, I still can't be a full-time "Fashionista" because there are still other things that I should prioritize. But I promised myself, that when everything is already settled, I will be ready to surprise the world of who I really am! :)
So be proud of yourself, don't be too obsessed with changing what God has given you, and be proud and learn to love your looks!

25 June 2011

FALCON being worried about to turn out just like ONDOY

It's not nice to see people suffer from the effects of Typhoon Falcon which hit the Philippines just recently especially the residents of "Marikina" and "Rizal". When the rain would still not cease, it could almost result to what Typhoon "Ondoy" caused -- hopefully not.

Well, for your knowledge, Typhoon "Ondoy" was one of the worst typhoons I've had encountered during my existence; it happened last September 26, 2009. It made the whole Philippines so much worried because the people didn't know what would happen next. They were not prepared because no one was expecting the unstoppable increase in the flood volume. The flood almost erased the "Marikina City" on the Philippine map. Horrible. Some Filipinos residing in good areas were so lucky not to experience being homeless and to stay in an evacuation area. Our place also didn't experience that -- but I chose to. Before I tell you about living in an evacuation area, I would like to share with you first my personal experience during Typhoon "Ondoy".

I was a Nursing student and I studied in a school which is a flood-prone area due to a creek nearby. I was in our morning shift, 6:00 am-2:00 pm (supposedly), but when I arrived at our school's hospital, I saw the water in the creek almost reaching the main road due to the very strong typhoon. I told myself it was just nothing and it would not even flood the whole area. So I ignored it and continued my work as well as my other classmates and my clinical instructor. At 10:00 am, all classes were suspended and we were all about to go home and Voila! All of a sudden the flood started to enter the basement of the hospital where we were having our shift. At first, my classmates and I made fun of it and even played with the flood using our wet shoes and feet (just like in the Titanic movie when the people just played with the ice on the floor not knowing that the basement was already filled with sea water).



We walked to the main door and that was the time my heart started to pound so fast. The road that I was referring to earlier which also happen to be the road in front of the hospital turned into a "RIVER" - no kidding.



It was 10:30 am when I called my parents at home to ask if they were okay and thank God they were. I told them that there's no way I could leave the hospital because the flood is as swift as a coursing river. And it happened -- all the people in the hospital at that time were stranded for more than 24 hours including me. But I was still lucky at that time; I was able to stay with my classmates and even eat real food while the informal settlers across the street were starving and freezing because the flood reached the second floors of their houses -- and they were all staying on their rooftops -- nothing to eat, to drink, nor an umbrella to somehow protect them from the rain. I could see the children crying but their parents couldn't do something. I could also see other students who were stranded in the school building adjacent to the hospital. When you were in my shoes, you wouldn't even believe what you were seeing. A bus was stranded in the middle of the road and the passengers were rescued earlier that day and mid-afternoon, that bus can already not be seen because the river of flood was so high -- that high.



September 27, 2009 (Sunday) we were able to go to our respective homes while there was still a little flood. My boyfriend and I ate first at 7 eleven because that was the only store open near that place and who were we to be choosy when we're already starving. After we made our stomachs full, we went home. Our place was good... there was flood all over the place but it was just until my knee (much better than the flood in school). But my boyfriend's place, it was horrible. Before we separated I told him to message me when he gets to their place but I didn't receive any for 24 hours.



I was so worried so I tried to call his brother's phone number (Monday) and luckily it rang. His mom answered it and that was the only time my anxiety left me. His mom told me that the river near their place overflowed and it reached their house causing them to leave and stay at the evacuation area temporarily for their safety. We talked for a few minutes but she hanged-up. The signal there was so bad. I tried to call her again the next day (Tuesday) but the signal condition in their city worsens. So I did just text them. They were able to receive my message and I was also able to receive a reply but it took a long number of hours. I decided to visit them the next day (Wednesday) so my boyfriend met me in Quezon City then we proceeded to their home. All of the residents there were cleaning their houses filled with thick soil (from the river). I stayed with them overnight and that's how I experienced being in an evacuation area.

What I learned about this experience is not just about being prepared for these unexpected calamities but we should also learn that when we realize that we're lucky not to be badly affected by these circumstances, we should then act to help other people who are greatly affected by these unfortunate events.

20 June 2011

Little EntrepreNurse's Infancy to Childhood

As a Nursing graduate, I would like to share my childhood experiences relatively to what I learned from my course. It isn't easy to recall everything but doing this I believe will help some parents to deal with their children's behavior and understand their personalities  more.
According to Erik Erickson and Sigmund Freud, people undergo several stages which determine their personality and behavior later on. I will tell you further regarding those stages as I go along with my story.
                                                                                                                                               
ORAL STAGE - from birth to 12 months
           - wherein the infant's "mouth" causes gratification to the infant (from the pleasure of feeding)

INFANCY (from birth to 12 months) - TRUST VS. MISTRUST



The world first heard my cry on the 5th of June year 1990 -- Tuesday. I grew up in  a family where FAITH and LOVE are greatly given importance. My family treated me as a very important child (since I'm the youngest of all my cousins). They responded to my needs immediately making me feel that I was so loved.


+ During this stage, whenever my parents hear me cry, they allow me to drink milk to satisfy my needs. It only means that since I was in the infancy stage, where my "MOUTH" brings me pleasure through feeding, I developed "TRUST" or I learned how to trust other people because my parents gave me what gratifies me and what satisfies me through feeding me.


+ Some children who were deprived during this stage manifests "ORAL FIXATION" when they grow up through: Chewing gums most of the time, Thumb Sucking, Smoking, Eating, Kissing, Oral Sexual Practices (which manifests most during Adolescence).


+Now you're learning. :)


ANAL STAGE - from 15 months-3 years
           - wherein the infant's "bladder and bowel" causes gratification to the child (from the pleasure of bladder and bowel elimination).

TODDLER (from 2-4 years) - AUTONOMY VS. SHAME AND DOUBT

All I can remember is when I was 3 years old, I always woke up with a loaded diaper. I always asked someone (either my uncle or the maid) to remove it every morning since my parents were in work. Everytime I felt like I was gonna poop, I tell an adult to assist me (and wash my butt). I was toilet-trained early and properly so I also learned early how to be on my own whenever I want to pee or poop.

+ During this stage, my mom always assisted and guided me when I eliminate and she never forced me to learn everything in one snap. She let me learn at the right time. It simply means that potty-training plays a very important role during this stage. Parents should be extra careful in training their children during this stage because it will affect their children's behavior when they grow up.

+ Children who experienced a very lax potty-training become Reckless, Defiant, Careless and Disorganized; while children who experienced a very strict potty-training become Obsessive-Compulsive, Very Organized and Neat (which can possibly lead to a personality disorder later on).


+ Focus more on these 2 stages and understand it well. Other stages will be explained later. :)


Sources:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychosexual_development
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erikson%27s_stages_of_psychosocial_development